You have to do a lot of “giving up” to realize yourself as a total person. The way I figure it, “totalness” (since I don’t know what Hegel means by “totality”), if not inherent, exists as possibility divided by those symbols deemed appropriate by the external. It doesn’t mean you’re ever gonna get there, because the idea of what constitutes the “total” is consistently flawed (allowing for growth), but the virtue in attempt, even in a minor way, stretches the self to something more along the lines of that elusive, problematic concept: truth.